oxford library

this is one of the sketches i did while i was abroad of the bodleian library in oxford.
[ drawn with a 0.5 mechanical pencil & a 2B & 6B drawing pencil ]
it's one of the architectural drawings that i like the most, and one of the ones that took me the longest (the french buildings took the extra longest!! perhaps i'll upload those too sometime.)
wish i could go back! oxford was one of those cute college towns, so i'd probably get sick of actually living there, but it was nice to visit.
perhaps i will one day, hopefully in the near future... now that i think about, i kind of regret not buying an oxford sweatshirt or something.

i want a mini-baby elephant.

something i could just sort of, carry around. :) i think i would love it.

[ girl sketched from vogue italia, a very old issue by the looks of it... ]

dream journal no. 1

my strange dream sequence, featuring bottega veneta resort '12.
i picked this dress due to the vivid orange color that is nice to find in a good oj :)

i found myself in the kitchen frosting a cake i had just baked. Though looking down at the jar held by my hands, it was not a jar of frosting. It was, instead, a jar of JIF peanut butter. So I was making a cake with peanut butter smeared on it. The cake was not even half covered, when the jar became completely empty.
So my hunt began in finding more peanut butter. Then i forget about the peanut butter quest, which is suddenly transformed to a search for orange juice. Frantically i begin to rummage through the strangest places and find orange juice cartons; in the cabinets, under the sink, etc. But to my dismay all the cartons i find are empty or close to it, with only a drop or two left.
i become more and more anxious.
soon the house is littered with phantom cartons once holding orange juice.

i wake up, the most stressed i've ever felt from a dream.
what on earth do you suppose that to mean?

reminisce?

as the fall term for my final year approaches (getting a little  very much anxious!), i'm forced to remember that i won't be a student for very long, and that i'll be unceremoniously thrust into the real world (hoo ha.). 

ideally i would love to be doing fashion illustration, although i really enjoy designing, it just seems a bit easier to draw what's already been produced... or another topper on my list would be working for a trend forecasting site! 

but i realize once you start working for someone, the creative liberties, kind of, fly out of the window. 

one of my instructors mentioned that we should be as creative as we can while in uni, because this is kind of the last hurrah unless you launch your own line (which i am unwilling to do--- too much responsibility for me as of right now!!)

i was rummaging around for some extra bristol paper, when i came across the first assignment of the past year, which was a submission to the cfda student competition. although i didn't qualify (my packaging section of the assignment was incomplete, so was unable to be submitted), i felt satisfied with the work i was able to achieve. 

as i remember it was pretty stressful, due to so many ongoing projects and some other issues, but the fact i was able to complete the work, makes me feel pretty proud of the result.

(the scanning process washed out a few of the more subtle colors, which is a shame..... but it's just the mood board w fabrics & the lineup) the individual figures showcase the clothes much better, but i don't think anyone wants to see, like a million uploads, so this'll have to do. unless someone does want to see them, i'll happily upload them.

interning at a bridal boutique

let me tell you;
it is awful interning/working at a bridal boutique..
but not for the reason you are thinking. sure we get a few bossy brides here&there but for the most part all the brides to be are very sweet when they come into the store.
nay, what i'm complaining about is the fact that being surrounded by couples about to take the leap & gorgeous dresses forces ME to think about marriage and weddings. oh sure i will get married eventually but it's not exactly on my top5 or even 10 priority things to do atm. & now I'm thinking about it all the time!

well i don't exactly have a man lined up at the door for me (i mean that'll come in good time, God willing, amiright?) so it's a bit depressing (no matter how much i say it's not quite) when my future life passes by with me as a designer with a load of cats.
I mean what if i do well in my career, which is what i am super focused & trying to acheive now, but i end up a spinster. that's completely mental and superficial on my part (there's more to life than just getting married etc)
& i'm going to be vulnerable here, but it's also frightening to think that maybe i will end up "alone." i know i'm not alone on this one & it's nothing to be embarrassed about, but i am, because no one likes to admit it. & isn't that everyone desires at the end of the day though? not to be alone, to find their other half?

i'm a total girl when it comes to the movie when harry met sally. & i absolutely love when marie & jess are each talking to sally & harry on the phone, respectively & simaltaneously (is that spelled right?) & have this quick exchange of dialogue (on being out in the dating world):
marie: tell me i'll never have to be out there again.
jess: you'll never have to be out there again.
i find this to be extremely sweet & i always love it, because it's them reassuring each other that this is forever & they will always be in love with each other.
 
ahh love... & damn the media that gives us this fantasy image of it.
but ultimately, it's good that i'm unattached. yes i'm 21 now, but there's no end to what i still don't know and my growth............
......besides if i got into a relationship now i'd probably fuck it up anyway.

the epic journey has come to a close

yes all that is harry potter has just ended its dramatic, 8-part movie series.
was it worth the wait-- of course... not. well okay, i'm a bit indecisive about this stance. i stood for about 4 hours in a somewhat mediocore (not intense or hardcore at all! i was waiting for voldemort to show up & duel SOMEONE... alas no) line filled with boys&girls clad in their sweater vests and short skirts, hormones about to overflow.... one girl was clever in making a dobby outfit, which ended up well done.
& yes the movie has proved to be much better than the other ones, really touching scenes, & i really didn't expect it to match with the books at all.. but i may be rather biased in this, because after all i have grown up with the series.
& that's actually another great thing about the movies; you see the characters, or rather the actors themselves, age with us, and grow and mature. which i think is ultimately why it is so touching.

i did tear up during a few scenes. so all in all after all this blabbering and critique... it is a must watch! :)
needless to say i'll be buying the dvds after they've gotten cheaper.... 8 movies is a lot to buy in a series!

no illustration today--- must go to work in about halfanhour!
cheers

so i'm a bit perplexed; i don't think i ever suscribed to 'hipster weekly' but apparently i'm part of their club. 

maybe it's my larger-than-life rayban prescriptions... or my general lack of enthusiasm.. or it could be my sarcastic nature that finds its way into any conversation. OR you know what. it's all the above.

(help me out of this hipster bubble please!!)

anyhow. the motivation is still progressing and my summer assignment is ...... somewhat progressing?

i keep trying to wake up early (early = 9a) get some good 'ol joe in me (thats what she said) & get to working. that's the plan anyway, before i fall asleep. but i keep waking up at 830 to put my alarm to snooze, and the next time i open my eyes.... it's 1230p. 

this is clearly not healthy for my......  health....? 

but i can't help it if i work better in the dark of the night!