interning at a bridal boutique

let me tell you;
it is awful interning/working at a bridal boutique..
but not for the reason you are thinking. sure we get a few bossy brides here&there but for the most part all the brides to be are very sweet when they come into the store.
nay, what i'm complaining about is the fact that being surrounded by couples about to take the leap & gorgeous dresses forces ME to think about marriage and weddings. oh sure i will get married eventually but it's not exactly on my top5 or even 10 priority things to do atm. & now I'm thinking about it all the time!

well i don't exactly have a man lined up at the door for me (i mean that'll come in good time, God willing, amiright?) so it's a bit depressing (no matter how much i say it's not quite) when my future life passes by with me as a designer with a load of cats.
I mean what if i do well in my career, which is what i am super focused & trying to acheive now, but i end up a spinster. that's completely mental and superficial on my part (there's more to life than just getting married etc)
& i'm going to be vulnerable here, but it's also frightening to think that maybe i will end up "alone." i know i'm not alone on this one & it's nothing to be embarrassed about, but i am, because no one likes to admit it. & isn't that everyone desires at the end of the day though? not to be alone, to find their other half?

i'm a total girl when it comes to the movie when harry met sally. & i absolutely love when marie & jess are each talking to sally & harry on the phone, respectively & simaltaneously (is that spelled right?) & have this quick exchange of dialogue (on being out in the dating world):
marie: tell me i'll never have to be out there again.
jess: you'll never have to be out there again.
i find this to be extremely sweet & i always love it, because it's them reassuring each other that this is forever & they will always be in love with each other.
 
ahh love... & damn the media that gives us this fantasy image of it.
but ultimately, it's good that i'm unattached. yes i'm 21 now, but there's no end to what i still don't know and my growth............
......besides if i got into a relationship now i'd probably fuck it up anyway.

the epic journey has come to a close

yes all that is harry potter has just ended its dramatic, 8-part movie series.
was it worth the wait-- of course... not. well okay, i'm a bit indecisive about this stance. i stood for about 4 hours in a somewhat mediocore (not intense or hardcore at all! i was waiting for voldemort to show up & duel SOMEONE... alas no) line filled with boys&girls clad in their sweater vests and short skirts, hormones about to overflow.... one girl was clever in making a dobby outfit, which ended up well done.
& yes the movie has proved to be much better than the other ones, really touching scenes, & i really didn't expect it to match with the books at all.. but i may be rather biased in this, because after all i have grown up with the series.
& that's actually another great thing about the movies; you see the characters, or rather the actors themselves, age with us, and grow and mature. which i think is ultimately why it is so touching.

i did tear up during a few scenes. so all in all after all this blabbering and critique... it is a must watch! :)
needless to say i'll be buying the dvds after they've gotten cheaper.... 8 movies is a lot to buy in a series!

no illustration today--- must go to work in about halfanhour!
cheers

so i'm a bit perplexed; i don't think i ever suscribed to 'hipster weekly' but apparently i'm part of their club. 

maybe it's my larger-than-life rayban prescriptions... or my general lack of enthusiasm.. or it could be my sarcastic nature that finds its way into any conversation. OR you know what. it's all the above.

(help me out of this hipster bubble please!!)

anyhow. the motivation is still progressing and my summer assignment is ...... somewhat progressing?

i keep trying to wake up early (early = 9a) get some good 'ol joe in me (thats what she said) & get to working. that's the plan anyway, before i fall asleep. but i keep waking up at 830 to put my alarm to snooze, and the next time i open my eyes.... it's 1230p. 

this is clearly not healthy for my......  health....? 

but i can't help it if i work better in the dark of the night!

i would be so good if i was always motivated

seriously.
like. i could be SO GOOD if i just had so much motivation. all. the. time.
but i guess that could be said of like... everyone. hmmmm.

so finally getting a move on for my summer assignment. few croquis here and there. but i really need to get down & research and put all the images together for my mood boards & everything else. BAH.
but i have knit a swatch. & i did buy some felting needles today (& broke one). & got a good start on sporadically felting my knit piece after interning.
must say. it's coming along. except it's really flaring up my sneezing with all the fluff & dust.........
but once i complete the swatch. should work for my fabric manipulation as well as for a fabric for my lost boys collection. :)
although i have to learn to cable knit........



.............did.. not.. think.. of.... that...

summer is not for play

the lost boys

i am in love with this concept&theme. seriously lucked out in picking this one out of the hat..

but i'm at a standstill as to where to take this idea in my design work.

i can go this route with this amazing photo by samuel bradley. (i'm not quite sure why i'm completely infatuated with this one. but there's something very spectacular about it, yes?) 

- slightly very sartorial but quirky

- the juxtaposition between man & nature/animals. the raw edges of it. the fur & all that.

- like sort of a proper boy who's gotten lost in the wild & in peter's adventures

orrr. i can go the militaristic, post-apocolyptic lost boy. 

- very savage you know?

- & there'd be a lot of resourceful, use-what-you-can-turn-it-into-something-else types of things going on.

on one hand i very much like the whimsical first direction... but i think i can take the second concept a lot farther.

sigh.

& this is only the first of three potential collections i must do. 

just wish i had a bit more time to work these ideas out.

off to contribute something to society now!

cheers 

december 4 a star was born.

doesn't matter what anyone says.

jay is genius personified. 

no questions no queries.

i literally laugh out loud everytime i hear venus v mars

"fell for the ponzi scheme, shawty just made-off"

honest, i didn't like that song really when i first heard it.

then i listened to the lyrics.

& i realized it was brilliant. he's got a way with words.

is it acceptable..

if i want to say 'fuck away' sometimes?





no?
yeah.. you're right, probably shouldn't.
cheers